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I was feeling very vulnerable last week, struggling with feeling too open and too emotionally raw. You know those times when you feel too tender, too fragile, when just about anything can set you over the edge? I was on that edge.<\/span><\/p>\n Then I watched Lady Gaga\u2019s new documentary 5\u20192\u201d. I was immediately struck by her rare vulnerability. When she hurt, she openly wept; when she felt raw and messy, she let everyone know; when she accidentally hit her producer\u2019s car on the day she was recording with Florence (of Florence + the Machine), she shared how upset she was about that, how exhausted she was, apologized profusely. She cried with her fans, cried when her manager called her with news about her cancer. She fell apart while receiving myriad treatments for a debilitating chronic pain condition (while a make-up artist tried to pull her face together for an interview happening minutes later). She allowed others to witness what she was feeling. No matter what was going on around her.<\/p>\n I walked away with a new heroine, vowing to be even more real than I already am, more vulnerable, expressive, more truthful – no matter how messy that looks. Because, frankly, our deepest source of strength is being true to our self-experience – in entirety.<\/strong><\/p>\n We\u2019re used to thinking that being a rock star is about projecting a perfected, controlled image (think: Beyonce. In the documentary Gaga makes a joke that every time she sees Beyonce and Jay-Z out she\u2019s doing something unlady-like; she imagines Beyonce\u2019s wondering how Gaga’s pulling this rock star thing off). I don\u2019t know if I\u2019ve ever seen anyone, rock star or no, more authentic than Gaga.<\/p>\n And this fear of being perceived as too messy, imperfect or vulnerable struck me as a woman\u2019s issue: All this focus on who we are to others (Libra) versus who we are (Aries).<\/p>\n How often we censor our raw, messy experience because we think it makes us weak<\/strong>, crazy, too emotional, when actually it’s denying the truth of our real experience that weakens us. When we\u2019re communicating our needs and feelings, when we\u2019re in our raw honest truth it\u2019s: diva behavior, or \u201cthat time of the month\u201d, \u201cbitchiness\u201d \u201cselfish\u201d. So we don\u2019t show up fully. We gloss over our feelings, or intellectualize them, instead of really feeling them.<\/p>\n Or do we go with feeling and sharing what we feel, trusting that those around us can take it?<\/p>\n We aren\u2019t born afraid to be our selves. We aren\u2019t born fearing what other people will do or say in response to us, what their reaction will be. It is learned behavior. It can be scary to be so real, so aligned, so honest, because it pushes other people\u2019s buttons.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n Because real-ness is scary to those who can\u2019t be real in their own lives.<\/p>\n Authenticity is something to reject for those repressing the their truth.<\/p>\n Honesty is threatening to those who are unwilling to honestly look at their self.<\/p>\n I\u2019ve seen this over and over. The more authentic and aligned I get, the more my alignment pushes buttons of those who are not. It\u2019s like a freaky circus machine; I show up and like clockwork, I get the experience of learning exactly where another is out of alignment in their self. I used to let what they couldn’t handle give me pause about sharing my self. Until I learned that is not feedback about what I should or shouldn\u2019t share– it\u2019s feedback on who and where they are.<\/p>\n It is never wrong to stand in truth, to show up as how and who you are, to fall apart, if needed. Unlike rock stars, we don\u2019t have people who are paid to stroke our Ego, pet our head soothingly and tell us what we want to hear when we want it. They will have their own reactions, and sometimes that hurts in the exact place we\u2019re endeavoring to be so open – our raw, real, vulnerable heart.<\/p>\n The truth is: some people can\u2019t handle the truth. That\u2019s their problem, not yours. But it\u2019s okay to protect your self if you\u2019re feeling too open. Sometimes that means giving others the \u201cwhat I tell my mom\u201d version of your emotional well-being. Or texting news that you know someone will have a reaction around, giving them a chance to process their own feelings about it, first, instead of projecting those onto you, initially. This is the right use of Libra’s sensitive empathic energies (versus being non-responsive, non-confrontational or avoidant).<\/p>\n As the Libra Sun opposes the Aries Moon, your authenticity, honesty and real-ness is bound to meet a reaction from others. Now is not the time for gilding the truth, or avoiding it, but for strategizing<\/em> the best, most compassionate, way for you to stay aligned.<\/strong>\u00a0Every warrior needs a strategy. Try: looking out for you. Take care of what you need. Put your self first.<\/p>\n In ancient Astrology, Aries is the God-head, holding our Divine nature. In this age of constant distraction, divisiveness, when people feel entitled to share their opinion over just about everything, it\u2019s a good thing to keep bringing your energy and focus back to you<\/strong> — what you want, need, feel, like — and what you do not (just as important). <\/strong>More fully inhabiting the central I AM (God\/Goddess) space, is the best defense we have against swirling energies, being thrown off center.<\/p>\n And there may be plenty we do not like. Saturn is square Venus and Mars in Virgo at this lunation. Princess and the Pea, much? We might find our selves feeling ultra sensitive and passionate about issues that, to others, may not seem like a big deal. But it is to us. And that’s ripe for exploration.<\/p>\n Lady Gaga<\/a> is an Aries with ruling planet Mars joined Neptune. I’d say she knows a bit about holding center during chaotic, big energies. One of my favorite lines in the movie occurs when she\u2019s giving instructions to her dancers, before her big Super Bowl performance. She says, \u201cThis is the stamina run. This is when you think you can’t, and you think you need to take an extra breath here or there. You don’t. You push through it, right?\u00a0You\u2019ve got to maintain your own sense of your Spirit<\/strong>. So when you\u2019re out there, focus on you. Keep the focus on you.<\/strong> It can get very distracting out there with everything going on. This one is about staying grounded and biting it hard.\u201d<\/p>\n This strikes me as sage advice for Aries Full Moon, when emotions and temperatures run hot and high. Things… other people<\/em>, media noise, little emergencies, world events…<\/em> can get distracting out there. Keep the focus on you. This one is about staying grounded –and biting it hard.<\/p>\n photo:Matthew Smith<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n The post Aries Full Moon: Born This Way<\/a> appeared first on Moonkissd by Jessica<\/a>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I was feeling very vulnerable last week, struggling with feeling too open and too emotionally raw. You know those times when you feel too tender, too fragile, when just about anything can set you over the edge? I was on that edge. Then I watched Lady Gaga’s new documentary 5’2”. I was immediately struck by […]<\/p>\n The post Aries Full Moon: Born This Way<\/a> appeared first on Moonkissd by Jessica<\/a>.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n