We really don\u2019t know what we\u2019re getting into when we fall in love with another. We fall under the spell of love, we fall for someone trustworthy, kind and true, and trust that no matter what comes our way, the tender feelings we have for one another, like a womb, will insulate and protect us from what inevitably comes next. Given the right person, barring a criminal history or other red flags, it would be silly to think it’s not worth the risk. Love is the ultimate reality, and many know God is Love, too.<\/p>\n
We take a vow, make a commitment to our Love, to love, honor, respect in sickness and in health…and a host of other potentials. What comes next\u2026is hard. It can happen five months down the road, or five years. The inevitability of love is that eventually something will challenge it in the deepest way. When something devastating, difficult or unexpected happens, we are forced to trace backwards how it \u201cgot this bad\u201d. Maybe we can start to see how poor communication, piled up resentments, a mutual unwillingness to have an honest conversation contributed to this. Maybe we never thought that letting that same argument go (over and over) could erode the attraction and affection we have for each other, let alone the very center of our union. A failure to adequately resolve what is happening in the present creates the atmosphere of living under a volcano. And these oppressed emotions and unspoken words are like time bombs.<\/span><\/p>\n In love we also tend to underestimate the level of unhealed trauma we all bring to our partnerships. Very few of us are enlightened enough so as to be healed from our childhood or karmic wounds. We each have baggage of the deepest, most buried kind \u2013 and this is always revealed in partnership sooner or later. Actually, it is the function of an intimate relationship to show us all the areas where we are still separate from Love. It is the contrast that illuminates Love, like a black and white photograph the more intense our love for another is (the white), the more pronounced what is keeping us from living there all the time (the black). The black holds our blocks, our feelings of separateness, pain and aloneness. It is also the trauma we carry but cannot yet see in our self \u2013 until the partner we love holds up a mirror and shows us how far we have left to go, to get the love we are aching for.<\/p>\n Personally, I have to see\u00a0the light and dark of Love as forces to balance out my soul, because I cannot afford to look at my marriage, or any relationship, in any other way. I am attempting to heal and have my soul made whole through Love and I have chosen intimacy as a path. To do this, I am learning to take responsibility for my entire experience of \u00a0relationship, including what I cannot yet see in myself. When I believe my husband is intentionally causing me pain, it\u2019s always beyond painful \u2013 it\u2019s destructive & unhelpful. In those crazy moments, we are more like puppies who are still learning the ropes but in big dog bodies, bowling each other over with enthusiasm and insecurity we are still unaware of our own strength and power. There are times I think I cannot handle the level of obstacles I\u2019m experiencing, and at these moments, I have to fight hard for the spiritual lesson, to glimpse the big picture. I ask to be shown. I do some praying, too. I make sure to have the hard conversation. Then, there’s usually a breakthrough. This seems to be the pattern of the Uranus-Pluto square.<\/p>\n The Uranus-Pluto square toggles with the planet of love, Venus, in the sign of committed love, Cancer, this week. We may need to look at the blockages in our relationship life, to see where we are standing separate from Love \u2013and then dive deep to correct it. Some of us may not be in a relationship, but realize we have formed beliefs based out of unhealed wounding, and misunderstanding around our True Lesson of a failed partnership which is preventing us from opening to love again. Pluto-Uranus is the epitome of peeling the onion: this week, just keep peeling it. We may not be ready for the core healing (or we may), but with each layer, we are incrementally closer to being whole, to opening our heart where it\u2019s been shut down, broken, hurt. It\u2019s stubborn, Holy work. But if pain is the motivator of growth, I can\u2019t imagine any better way to learn than through the path of the heart.<\/p>\n We really don\u2019t know what we\u2019re getting into when we fall in love with another. We fall under the spell of love, we fall for someone trustworthy, kind and true, and trust that no matter what comes our way, the tender feelings we have for one another, like a womb, will insulate and protect us […]<\/p>\nWe all have darkness, hurt and pain. We all have suffered, deeply, to achieve the spiritual awareness and growth we can claim today. It\u2019s important to remember this when we\u2019re having relationship troubles, when love isn’t romantic and good-feeling but painful. Love isn\u2019t supposed to feel good all the time. Marianne Williamson says, \u201cPart of our problem is that we expect love affairs to always feel good. They don’t. Actually, relationships don’t feel good anyway. We feel good. Unless we are centered within ourselves, we cannot blame a relationship for throwing us off.” We\u2019re together to grow, and we pay for that growth through working through the painful times, misunderstanding, botched communication, wounds. For most adults, pain motivates growth.<\/p>\n
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